Tag: melancholy
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Limerence
An aching thumping rattle Longing, wanting, needing Stomach in Knots tied till threads rip A soul mate, loveless for any other Two souls to be made whole Yet Soul mate lost but never found A surrogate made and mutilated Real feelings dashed for fiction Illusion smashed, hollowed heart Surrogate lost, soul mate shattered Manifested for…
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Moving boxes
I’ve wanted to move from AZ for a while now. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a great place if you’re near the big city. That being said, I am not. So it’s difficult being here, on the frontier. Even if it wasn’t the distance to anything fun that was the issue, this last year has…
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Monster
I wanted to write to you about Crimson. Specifically because today is the day after her day of passing; the first year. In writing, I began to spin off to my other dog Riley. Though not my intentions, I feel that it would be a better moment to share with you Riley. He needs some…
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Transcriptions 1/?
Where am I going? This question has always plagued me. “What do you want to be when you grow up?If you had a million dollars what would you do?” they’re all the same. Frankly, I have no idea where i’m going. My general plan in life is college; that’s it. In 2018 there was no…
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5/10/26
You ever feel like there’s something wrong with you? Yeah, me too. I’ve pretty much always felt like there was something wrong with me. I’m not sure when or what caused it really, but it’s been there. Watching over me. Sometimes it would take my hands. It would wrap its hands into mine, clasping the…
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Betraying The Heart For Comfort of Convenience
It’s with equal parts frustration and sorrow that I write this letter. Frustration in feeling as if what I say fails to capture the essence of how I feel and what it is I want to say vs what it is that I mean to say. Sorrow for knowing that I speak not to the…
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Ready, set, start
I wanna pour out all the reasons, one-by-one, why I’ve given myself 6 more years. But you know what, it doesn’t matter. I could construct every reason “why” down to the perfect explanation, yet it would never be enough. Truth is it’s never going to be enough to someone who loves you. It’s never enough…
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Here, There and Nowhere
It could have been any bar in the city; why I chose this one, I don’t know. What I did know, however, was that I didn’t want to be bothered or alone. I can’t help but think, “If you stare at something long enough, you’ll learn something.” What I was trying to learn from my…
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The Song Bird’s Shadow.
Over the mountain, through a canyon beyond the hills, and across a prairie, people in mass and motion, their moving buzz is the thing we call life and living. Yet, like a black speck—muted, washed out, displaced, replaced, forgotten, and cast aside—there lies one in the cracks between. Like a Songbird, last of his species,…
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