Tag: journal
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Where am I going? This question has always plagued me. “What do you want to be when you grow up?If you had a million dollars what would you do?” they’re all the same. Frankly, I have no idea where i’m going. My general plan in life is college; that’s it. In 2018 there was no…
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5/10/26
You ever feel like there’s something wrong with you? Yeah, me too. I’ve pretty much always felt like there was something wrong with me. I’m not sure when or what caused it really, but it’s been there. Watching over me. Sometimes it would take my hands. It would wrap its hands into mine, clasping the…
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Betraying The Heart For Comfort of Convenience
It’s with equal parts frustration and sorrow that I write this letter. Frustration in feeling as if what I say fails to capture the essence of how I feel and what it is I want to say vs what it is that I mean to say. Sorrow for knowing that I speak not to the…
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Ready, set, start
I wanna pour out all the reasons, one-by-one, why I’ve given myself 6 more years. But you know what, it doesn’t matter. I could construct every reason “why” down to the perfect explanation, yet it would never be enough. Truth is it’s never going to be enough to someone who loves you. It’s never enough…
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Here, There and Nowhere
It could have been any bar in the city; why I chose this one, I don’t know. What I did know, however, was that I didn’t want to be bothered or alone. I can’t help but think, “If you stare at something long enough, you’ll learn something.” What I was trying to learn from my…
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The Song Bird’s Shadow.
Over the mountain, through a canyon beyond the hills, and across a prairie, people in mass and motion, their moving buzz is the thing we call life and living. Yet, like a black speck—muted, washed out, displaced, replaced, forgotten, and cast aside—there lies one in the cracks between. Like a Songbird, last of his species,…
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The Warden, The Guard and The Prisoner
My mind is, well, lost for words these days. Yet that does not mean I am dispossessed of thoughts. I’ve always had luck, in the past, when it came to creativity. Off-the-wall thoughts, ideas, or concepts have always been a talent of mine. It is this very thing that I find tragically absent in my…
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